I struggled with Anorexia Nervosa from when I was thirteen until I was nineteen. Many people treat eating disorders as a joke when in reality they are very serious mental illnesses.
Over 200,000 cases of eating disorders are reported in the United States every year.
This post is going to be about my struggle with anorexia.
When I was in middle school I had decided to not eat lunch at school.
I would get a drink and that was it. Before I knew it I had quit eating lunch at all and soon breakfast followed. I wasn’t trying to become anorexic, I just wanted to lose some extra weight. The thing about anorexia that really got to me was that it is a mental illness. You see yourself at a larger weight than you actually are on top of making unrealistic & unhealthy goals for yourself.
When I started high school I had lost about 30 pounds.
The depression had started to set in saying that I wasn’t good enough, I had to be better, I had to be skinner to be better though. I was a fairly active high school student, I did marching band and color guard every year. I believe that staying active made it easier for me to lose the weight I was so desperate to lose.
Fast forward to when I was sixteen, I was underweight & my depression had gotten out of control. I talked to the doctor about different kinds of medicine for it that could help. But instead of helping, the medicine the doctor had put me on actually made me suicidal. After being on the medicine for about two weeks I was hospitalized as a result of me overdosing.
I tried to take my own life because of depression that started with an eating disorder.
I’ve gotten professional help since then. I can say confidently that my eating disorder is in the past. However, there is always a reminder when I look in the mirror that I could be smaller. Eating disorders are not a joke, they should be treated as seriously as they are. If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder I urge you to talk to them about it.
Below I have attached a picture of me at my one-year recovery mark from Anorexia.